Now, I’m home and try to make all ends meet. The world goes around so fast. Sometimes it is difficult to keep up. I find myself at home all the time, after finish teaching I rush home, play with the kids, and have a quality time with my husband. I find it rather empty inside, all though it is filled with my little family, but I hardly find the time to be me. Little by little I lost my identity. I teach privately, so I don’t even have coworker. So yes……I do surround my live with just family.
The picture perfect that I wanted for me was already begun since I was a child. Taken adult responsibilities and taking care of my little sis and bro, grew anger inside and most of all…developing the idea that being me isn’t good enough. So I began feeling small inside and unworthy to be loved. Now, as an adult and a mom, the feelings sometimes still overwhelmed me. I find myself crying and just feel not good enough as a wife or a mom.
I know my previous post have such an energetic and powerful thought about it is ok to be imperfect, I just wanted to state that it is harder to say it then to constantly putting it in my head all the time.
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